It's been over a month since I last posted. Last month life was going on as normal (or as normal as it was for me). I was creating art and taking care of my husband with his health issues. We celebrated Thanksgiving with the whole family at our house.
Then life changed. My husband's health went downhill rapidly. The hospice nurses who had been helping me take care of him at home, recommended transferring him to the hospice facility so they could manage his pain better. That was on a Monday. On Wednesday, Dec 14th, he passed away. The family was all around him and as they promised, his pain was managed so the ending was peaceful.
Everything since then has been like Alice going through the looking glass. It's a whole different world. We had a memorial service that I feel properly honored his life. Many friends and associates came and had wonderful things to say about their memories of him. My family and friends have been very supportive of me. It's only been this past weekend that I've finally been alone in my house.
The quiet in my house is soooo quiet. I had gotten accustomed to the constant hum of the oxygen machine for my husband so when that was taken away it seemed strange. I got a humidifier going in my bedroom and the noise that it makes is oddly comforting.
Artistically I've been in a funk. Occasionally I'll doodle on the edge of a piece of paper, but I haven't really been able to focus enough to really get something done. I'm hopeful that will change soon so please bear with me until that time comes.
The piece that is shown above is one that I did a while back. My husband told me it was one of his favorites so I posted it here for him. It's a color stack that uses several different colored tiles that go from 6"x6" down to 2"x2".
I'll miss you Ed.